My life

2010-01-20T20:51:00.001+08:00

Would you think that you're a failure?

I do.. all the time.

2010-01-07T10:05:00.001+08:00

Raining, sliped and fall, fucking math, fucking math UT and fucking fuck mood.

FYI, today is a very good day for me. FUCK.

2009-12-31T21:08:00.002+08:00

Well... 2009.. hmmm...
What is the things that i remember in 2009? Nothing much actually. Its kinda a down for me since the start of 2009. It kinda sux. It went ROCK bOTTOM!!!! But then, it starts to go up again(: family pick me up and gave me a push. So i just hold on to that. Then friends came in to gave me a hand to carry on. But i saw someone reaching out to me which made my 2009 the bomb! You dear (:

Life is just full of ups and down. When there's a down, there will always be an up (:

Hope mine and your 2010 will be a great one!!! (:

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! (:

2009-12-21T22:10:00.001+08:00

Sometimes we guys are just stupid enough to see whats happening to their girlfriend :/

Best Friend?

2009-12-20T20:28:00.002+08:00

I think i don't know who is my best friend already :/
Its very confusing now. I had one. But he's really far far away.
Then i had one in RP. But it wasn't as good. I feel wired if i were to msg him.
It just different.

I use to have alot of good friends to msg. But now, all of them are busy with their own things.
Or maybe its just me not msging them :/
I dont know... But sometimes i want a friend, a friend that is there for me and talk
to me. He's like a 2nd girlfriend to me (: sounds gay. but oh well..

2009-12-13T21:06:00.001+08:00

It seems like i got nothing to do online :/..
i think im going to read my book now.

sooooo boring without you :////

4 days 3 night

2009-12-12T17:46:00.001+08:00

I will miss you dearly much (:

enjoy yourself there!!
xoxo

2009-12-07T23:03:00.001+08:00

hey people of the world! im using tumblr now!!!

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2009-12-06T21:27:00.000+08:00

Wow! really had a 'superb' good times at the padang :/
DAMN YOU PEOPLE WHO WAS LIMPING THEIR WAY TO US!!!!!!!

hahahaha! oh well.. congrats too! (:

2009-12-02T11:09:00.002+08:00

i guess im going training then

edit. nop.. not training. set thing right with faci. go die!

2009-12-01T19:18:00.002+08:00

Only one thing that can make all my unhappiness go away.
Your face gave me this sense of happiness. Seeing you being there
to get rid all my problem feel soo right.
There's nothing in this world that can make me happy that fast than you (:

I just made my day from bad to worst..
Fuck my life

My Grade 'A' student (:

2009-11-25T23:47:00.002+08:00

Is today the day to remember?

25 November 2009

Happy to the max! (:

Its kicking in me again..

2009-11-24T12:39:00.003+08:00

Moodswings!! why you coming back to me again!! FISH YOU!!!!! damn!

don't feel like doing anything today...

:/

++++++++++++++positive++++++++++

Believe

2009-11-23T19:31:00.001+08:00

When you believe in something. And when the truth is out it might just break your heart.

Fuck it!

Gee gee, i taking you out for a long walk.

2009-11-21T22:05:00.001+08:00

Never felt soo warm (:

One day

2009-11-21T14:15:00.002+08:00

One day your friend came to you and said "hey, i'm dying." what would you do? If that person was the most hated person, or your ex lover who broke your heart, or someone who you find irritating. What would you do?

All of us are dying. But we don't realise that. A mad died in a live telecast of an interview. He was healthy all round. But he died in an instant in that interview. Thinking of this just make me sad knowing that everybody will die. I'm sorry to all the person who i have been negative towards to.

And to you, i would love to let you know in person that i love you (:

2009-11-20T08:32:00.000+08:00

Get well soon (:

What if i was..

2009-11-19T12:39:00.003+08:00

What if i was blind, death or mute.. I would be missing many beautiful things in the world. I won't be experiencing many things or adimire them. And especially you.

I won't be able to see that beautiful smile of yours. When i think of something beautiful, your face would appear on my mind. It hard for me to just forget about you.

That whisper you gave, i still remember. its just soo heavenly to me. Hearing you just right by my ears, ahh! just can't forget about it.

if i were mute, i won't be able to say the words that you really mean it.

i really could use somebody.. i hope it make you make you notice.

(: <3!

Friends, Lovers Or Nothing

2009-11-14T01:18:00.002+08:00

You gave me the impression that you want more
I feel like i'm being misjudge by your heart
Ups and down is what i can see
It feels like i'm your friend
You treat me like a lover
but i realise that i'm nothing to you

Friends, Lovers or Nothing?
just give it up...

we'll never be in between

2009-11-10T22:02:00.002+08:00

Unhappy and pissed off. Why do i feel that you're unhappy and pissed off everytime i msg you? or when i say the wrong thing? i really don't get it.

Some men are just to shallow to understand all this feelings. We are just sometimes confuse on what the opposite wants. really.. we're just lost.

2009-11-08T14:43:00.001+08:00

If we know the happenings, would we live by it or change by believing in what you're hoping for?

No one could love me any better than you

2009-11-08T12:54:00.003+08:00

Things are confusing for me now.. Experiencing extream ends of every feelings.
Am i going crazy? Am i crazy enough to be considered as ' crazy ' in people's eyes?
I don't know. But this heart tells me that i'm not at all.
That i have feelings for you!

Keeping it.. Keeping it for you.

Hope

2009-11-04T21:31:00.002+08:00

Hope is what all of us have. We hope for something to come. We hope that something will happen. We hope for tmr to be better. Hope is the one that keep us going forward. We look forward by the hope.

But hope can just bring you down to the ground. When the truth comes and shatter hope, all hope are gone. It can bring you to an instant depression. So should we still hope for something?
If we hope, it brings us forward. But if we hope, it might just tear us apart.
So how would it be?

Why do we guys need to do the 1st move?

2009-11-03T19:41:00.003+08:00

This is a topic that is making the guys around the world wonder.
Why do guys need to do everything 1st?

okay okay.. when we want to get to know someone new, we guys have to make the move.
when we want somebody's number, we guys have to ask first.
Defeding the country, guys dies first.
at the lift, guys press the 'open' button 1st but last to leave. ( acceptional )
BUT WHY!!!!!

the world is changing. there is a 1st female president.
there are female bus driver. there are female pilot.
there are female in the army.

Sooooo.. why can female make the 1st move??? uh uh???!
scared uH!!!!! hahahaha! no wonder you guys have the 'P' word :/
the appropiate word is vigina x)

im sorry girls. im just too bored of studying :///
hhahaha! kill me if you want x)

okay okay.. focus din!! go study!! x)

2009-11-02T21:40:00.001+08:00

think think think think think??????
babe??? ahahaah! since when?? x)
you ar!! tsk!!!

can you duplicate yourself??? pretty pleaseeee!!!!! :b

what's happening to me

2009-11-01T11:15:00.002+08:00

I woke up this morning feeling sad. The emotion gush into me with no reason at all.
What could possibly be the reason that is making me to feel this way?
I just don't like it at all. Emotions running down. All i can feel was sad and angry.
And that was most of the feeling i had these days.

If you saw your future right there, would you chase for it or change it?
or can we even change the future that was meant to be..

still thinking of you

2009-10-30T11:11:00.002+08:00

Many months had pass now. Many friends i got to know. Many voices i heard.
But one i'm still waiting. Her voice is what i want to hear. Her msg is what i want to see.
Would she know that i'm missing her?

We guys are shallow. Most of the time we don't think when do things. We would selfishly
follow what we want and not what the opposite sex want. Which is love. The love and care
for that them is what they want. And not 'physical love'.

I was stupid then.. really stupid.
maybe thats why i'm angry at myself nowadays.

the girl with the crabby hand (:

2009-10-29T23:20:00.002+08:00

Head pain :/ sian... how how??? since morning... but wasn't for awhile. Then i came back again.
I don't think im going school tmr :/ BUT, might go to the halloween party x) hahaha!

then then today, i heard a really funny thing. Me and this friend of mine ( geraldine goh ) were glancing through the crowd at school see if there's any pretty girls. Suprisingly there isn't at that
time :( but but!!! this friend of mine got tired of saying which is pretty then she point to herself and telling me "this one pretty right?" hahaha!

what if our heart was a compass?

2009-10-28T22:56:00.002+08:00

If our heart were made to be like a compass. And that compass will point in only 1 direction.
and that direction will only lead you to someone. Someone who you will fall for.
Someone who you might get fight with. Someone who you might break their heart.
Someone who you will hold hands. That someone who might be your first and the last kiss.
And someone who you would die with right by your side.

Would you take the path?

i would..

2009-10-26T11:15:00.002+08:00

I saw the girl who called me stalker today (: hahhaha! she look as pretty as usual (:

But i also got a stalker too!!! and her name is GERALDINE GOH!!!! X)
you can never miss her :b

xoxo

2009-10-25T20:10:00.002+08:00

Do i want to let go of this feeling? Cause nothing is making it better.
My mind keep thinking the possibilities that it might happen again. But i don't think it will.
And again and again i'm killing myself.

Aku masih berharap untuk dengarkan suaramu. Aku hanya boleh menunggu sesuatu untuk
berlaku.

This feeling can only be heal by you or just by someone eles.. I wish that we could just go back
to the past. But i don't think its going to happen again. I just dont think so.

2009-10-21T20:59:00.000+08:00

What's the point of having it all,

without the person you love.

2009-10-20T21:15:00.001+08:00

If You See Kay, will you her that i love her?

2009-10-19T22:37:00.002+08:00

They say that girls think alot and guys don't think. Maybe that is true?
but i do think alot. does that make me a girl??? or i just got more of a girly thingy?? x)
hmm...

maybe i need to think simple. I need to learn not to think alot. Just let it be.
If it be, then let it be.

*haiz... now i think i won't be able to date GERALDINE GOH!!! X) haahaaha!
if you're reading this, im pressing your ******* arms (: hahaha!
you know i know what we mean (:

2009-10-18T20:57:00.003+08:00

what now?...

The last person i think about before i slept, was you.
The first person i think about when i woke up, was you.

This mind would revolve around the picture of you.
and this heart would ache.

But what now?...

i don't know why but i have soo much feelings for you.
but it hurts to know if the truth was that you don't feel the same way.

i am not giving up, i know that it is you.
you make things around me soo perfect.
that is why im not going to let it go.

2009-10-18T13:05:00.002+08:00

When deep injury is done to us, we never recover untill we forgive.
Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future. - Mary Caren Read

2009-10-17T23:02:00.002+08:00

i'm soo angry at myself.. im angry, yes. But to what? ahhhh!
you face keep playing in my mind.

ivp finals tmr. all the best to us (:

2009-10-15T11:29:00.002+08:00

I don't know which way it's going to go. When i let go of something that i really want, then i realise that i made a big mistake. Now it is hard to make that feeling come back again.
but why am i seeing every possibilities that there are still hope for me to hold on?

im such a stupid fella. didn't see that it was going the direction that i wanted. but now, i don't know which direction its going to be.

2009-10-15T11:19:00.000+08:00

im begging you guys! please don't fight anymore... please..

2009-10-14T23:16:00.001+08:00

actually nvm.. it just seems that you don't care. i don't know where i went wrong that made you msg me soo cold.. i don't know.. well fine.. if you want to do this to me. then fine.

2009-10-14T22:11:00.002+08:00

why am i having this feeling?.. why are my eyes playing tricks on me?
everytime i see a word that has a 'ning' at the end, my eyes would focus on 'ning' instead of the whole word.

i really agree with friz.. this feeling really sux.. but i love it.
cause i know that i care for that person (:

i would give more than i take

2009-10-14T21:58:00.002+08:00

I have seen many of my friends falling in love. They came to me and said " hey! i think i found the one". And most of my friends are with somebody. I am happy for all of my friends (:

Sometimes all we need is time.. but sometimes will time give you the answer to what you're waiting for?...

what a life..

2009-10-13T22:35:00.002+08:00

For a picture that smiles and eyes that see.
A smile is only true, which the heart feels.
A pure expressions, hiding unsure emotions.
Your smile was a curve starting so slow and then beginning to glow.
For if she is shy, you will find smile.
Shimmering, shining, a natural delight.
A smile that is sure and not fake _____'s smile was a smile i take.
We'll smile at each other, till the moment is gone.
Somehow we grew stronger, unbreakable by any bond (:

2009-10-13T10:22:00.001+08:00

wth! freaking moodswings kicking in... it's been quite sometime i never got any moodswing.. haiz.. idiot moodswing!!!!!! WHY!!!!!!!

2009-10-12T19:19:00.001+08:00

it doesn't matter what you see, cause i can never find someone like you. And it doesn't
matter what you say cause i can never face someone like you.

2009-10-12T18:34:00.001+08:00

I dreamt about something... But i don't know if you had the same dream as me.

2009-10-11T11:53:00.002+08:00

what would you do when something that you been wanting,
wants you back?

you've been waiting for this for many month and here the opportunity comes. what would you do? let it go? or you chase it?

we would all chase it. But when are you going to stop chasing it?
time will tell.

But i'll chase it till i got it.

2009-10-11T00:21:00.001+08:00

you can live your whole life,
and never know who you are.

untill you see the world
through the eyes of others.

2009-10-11T00:04:00.002+08:00

freaking hell! i ordered something and paid for it online. it took freaking 5 days. It was suppose to be send on wed. WTH!!! and even worst! they just put it outside my house. they didn't knock nor doorbell or call me. what a service!!! wanted to call them and give a piece of my mind. but nahh.. i got my thing alrady ((:

2009-10-10T13:33:00.002+08:00

Everybody know that i was such a fool. To ever let go of you and that was wrong.
Yes i know what i said. But i didn't mean to break your hear. I didn't mean
to do that.

And here i am.. coming..

2009-10-09T22:09:00.002+08:00

if you were to know to know somebody and really got with her,
then she broke up with you. Will it be easy for you to get back with her?
will it be easy to work for it as she likes it but your heart feel aching all the time?

it is hard.. and it was hard. you wanted more time, but it was too much time for me.
i gave what i had to offer, but that was it..

2009-10-06T10:44:00.002+08:00

I'm tempted to ..... :/ hahahaha! tahan!!!!

2009-10-04T22:56:00.002+08:00

I'm not an actor nor i am a star. I don't have my own car.
But im hoping so much that you stay
that you will love me (:

2009-10-04T17:24:00.002+08:00

You keep thinking about the person. No matter how much you try
to forget about her, she keep coming back. Before i sleep, you will come to my mind.
Wake up, you appear in my mind. It's like you making me crazy over you.

They say that when you love someone, you can't stop missing that person. You will
feel your heart aching. When she replies with smiles or she msges you first, it ease your
heart totally.

You just make me feel like myself when i'm around you (:

2009-10-03T00:54:00.002+08:00

I had a super nice day today (:

Sports Carnival with the kids!! and oh my they are soo cute!! especially Ayuni!! (:
gosh, i think when she grows up, she going to be a really pretty girl!

was really tired afterwards,
but got a nap in the bus before meeting at friend place.

Had dinner and was the waiter for the day for her (:
hahah! evil!!!! you!!!!
i had a really nice day with you today.

and you've change, for the better ;)
i like the new you

2009-10-01T12:50:00.002+08:00

Ten miles from town, i just broke down.
Spittin' out smoke on the side of the road
and i'm all out here alone just trying to get home
just to tell you that i was wrong but you already know

was about to give up this journey
but to see you, i've started running to you.

After this time i spent alone

It's hard to believe that a man with a sight could be so blind

of all the good times that is carved in my mind

so i'm running back to tell you

All that i'm after is a life full of laughter,
i'm thinking that all that still matters is love ever after
cause i know that there's no life after you.

2009-09-29T13:19:00.002+08:00

Somebody is having a really expensive alcohol drink, but in else where somebody is drying from dehydration. Some where on earth,someone is celebrating somebody's birth. But else where someone is crying as they lost someone dear to them.

When there's someone having a break up, someone else is falling in love or in love again.

Sometimes i don't know if this would occur to me, but i just have to try and see. Cause i'm not going to regret from not trying it. I won't know untill i try.

2009-09-26T14:26:00.002+08:00

What does it means when you cannot sleep?

1. you're still too high.
2. you're thinking too much
3. you're missing somebody

it could be all of the above. but i think for me, it would be the 3rd one.
there's so much to be said. But with a broken heart, you won't be able to hear me
when i call your name.

'Maybe' is a really pain in the ass word. cause you don't know the exact thing. it gives
you hope but in the same time it gives you false hope.

maybe you're talking about me, but i learnt not to have high hopes on 'maybe's'

p.s i really miss you

2009-09-26T01:05:00.002+08:00

today the moon smiled at me. i smiled back. but i wonder why 'it' smiled at me. is it a sign for something? or 'it' is telling me something?

still it's maybe. but if don't know if it is.

2009-09-24T23:21:00.002+08:00

Heroes is out! How i met your mother too!! Finally i got something to look forward to every week (:

maybe it's true. its just maybe. but you're not showing that it is at all.

2009-09-23T01:27:00.001+08:00

Just came back from bugis with cousins (:

and cannot sleep now.. how sad right??? haiz... always cannot sleep early nowadays :/
sian... and worst, training is in 14 hrs time.

making myself busy so i won't think too much. good good (:

2009-09-22T01:42:00.003+08:00

maybe maybe maybe??

when my phone vibrate then comes the vintage msg tone, i would see *1 message receieve*. but who could be? who could be msging me? sometimes i just wish it was you. Then reality pull me away from my fantasy.

why i keep going back to my past? it was a hard love someone said. But i feel that it isn't. When you fall in love, that person will the most perfect person in the world.

maybe... just maybe...

2009-09-21T13:24:00.002+08:00

What a day yesteday! i had fun with my many many cousins on a lorry (:
went to many places and met many people who i have no idea that i'm related to them x/

but how freakishly sucks when my head kept thinking!!! its really irritating. It's like
everywhere i would go, i will think about it. Even when i woke up 10min ago, i think
about it.

Dear brain,
what are you trying to do to me?? i wonder and i want to know why.
Please stop doing it cause it cannot be change anymore. Possibility finding zero.
Cause wishes cannot be granted by my brain. Can only be granted by magical things.

21/09/09 marked.

2009-09-19T14:10:00.000+08:00

Everyday i patiently wait,
i feel like a fool but i do anyway.

2009-09-19T01:20:00.002+08:00

Jodoh itu terbagi 3

Pertama, Jodoh dari Syaitan.

Kamu berdua berkenalan berpegang tangan dan terus buat maksiat akhirnya dia mengandung. Baru kamu bernikah.

Kedua, Jodoh dari Jin.

Kamu berdua berkenalan. Kamu Sikakan dia. Tapi dia tak sukakan kamu. Kamu bomohkan dan shihirkan agar dia sukakan kepada kamu dan berdua bernikah.

Akhirnya, Jodoh dari Tuhan.

Kamu berdua berpandangan mata. Terus menusuk kekalmu. Kamu terus meminang dia. Dan dia terima pinangan kamu. Dan kamu berdua bernikah. Insyallah berkakallan hingga akhir hayat. Itulah di katakan Syurga Cinta.

2009-09-19T00:55:00.001+08:00

i care..

2009-09-17T22:16:00.002+08:00

i hope going to get sleeping disorder :/ shucks!! been sleeping very late. and wed, didn't sleep till 6am ): haiz... then worst, woke up at 10am.. and got training.
why i think too much uh?? tsk tsk! need to knock my head really hard one time.

But sometimes its just good to know that i think (:

2009-09-17T21:23:00.002+08:00

We are soo ridiculous funny. The thing that we remember the most are the bad things. The only time that we remember the good things is when that thing is not there anymore. but why ? ....

2009-09-15T21:23:00.002+08:00

Do you know that you're a lucky guy to have her? She is a very unique girl that you can never find anywhere else. And i can bet with you on that. She never fail to make me forget about all of my worries. And best of all, she never fail to make me smile. But you know sometimes i just have to hide that smile away.

You're a very luck guy (:

2009-09-15T20:15:00.001+08:00

I wanted someting sweet last night. And yes i did receive something sweet. It wasn't a food nor it is a drink. It was a message (:

2009-09-14T23:35:00.000+08:00

Sometimes if you have something to ask somethings that would end either really good or really bad, what would you do? It just takes the most demoralizing syllabus in english dictionary to make you feel soo rejected. No. How can a 2 Alphabet make you feel very depressing. hahaha!

But this is the part where you realise that it meant to be. Maybe not now that you wil realise it, but you will realise it in the future. And when the time again to ask something which would turn out both extream end of feelings, and it is answered with the most encouraging word in english language. Yes. You will be the happiest man on earth in that moment.

That is why these "no" will turn out to be a "yes". Maybe not tommorow, next week or 5 years down the road. But it will happen. No doubt about it (:

2009-09-14T00:12:00.002+08:00

Sometimes curly hair just suits people with their round face.But not too round. Too straight of a hair make the person face look longer :/ But if you have a round chubby face with a straight hair, go for a dress (: It really look nice on you. hahaha!

And no no no, i am not stalking you. I just know that its a dress. Lucky guess ?? x)

why am i a stalker to some people???? i just tend to stare blanks sometimes (:

2009-09-13T00:42:00.002+08:00

Right now as im typing on this blog, i have no idea what should i blog about
Life has been smooth lately. I got hit by reality and i realise many things about my life.
Good friends show many pathway that i should look towards to.

Sometimes i just need longer time to move on. And that time is actually 2 days back (:
I know now what i want and what i need in my own life. I'm focus.
You know what world?! There are many others who need to be care(:
and i shall give it to them. Especially to all my good friends!

2009-09-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

Sick sick!! ahhhhhh! headache like one kind! Flu like many kind!!!
BUT feeling better! (:

2009-09-11T01:03:00.002+08:00

That is the way you left me and i'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
no happy ending
This is the way that we love,
like it's forever.
We will live the rest of our life,
but just not together (:

2009-09-10T13:05:00.001+08:00

There will be someone out there who will care about you.
After what happened, god knows what's going to happen afters.

2009-09-09T01:14:00.000+08:00

You can never forget about the person who you care the most. No matter how much damage is done, you will still care.

Untill...

2009-09-08T23:21:00.000+08:00

In 7 days god make this world.
In just 7 seconds, i fucked up mine

2009-09-08T13:35:00.000+08:00

How stupid can i be? Why can't i just think the possible and not the impossible?

Its not me anymore. Why do i keep thinking about you? why do i still care about what you do?

i have to be realistic. She isn't thinking about you anymore. She not talking about you anymore. Everything that she say is not about you.

but why i feel that she is..

adakah aku yakin yang ini cinta?

2009-09-07T21:35:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gulk2Gz4UrQ

this link will lead you to a music video that i love very much. Its a malay music video.

Its about a guy still hold that hope for love. He hope that he can live for 1000 years to wait for that love to come. He would chase for that love no matter how far it will go.

But would life let him live for 1000 years? Would his body let him chase for that love that far?

He believe that it is love. and this love is forever. He truly belief in it. He will lose that hope for that love.

But is it really possible? I was like him before. Hope what kept me going. Kept me believing that there is still chance for us to be together again.

Something stole that hope away from me. Reality. It stab me right into my heart. And left me there thinking.

You have somebody to like or even love now. And i don't think whatever is on your blog is about me. That is why i deleted my blog.

As for me.. I have my friends to keep that sad side of me away from me.

Cheers!

Too Tired!! ):

2009-09-07T20:08:00.000+08:00

Today i went to Pulau Ubin for cycling with my training group. It was hilariously fun!(: hahaha! Got blood here and there. But it was fun. Then went return, i got to realise that i knee was bleeding really badly :/ hahahaha! i just went "OH! i got blood on my knees!!" then went to shower and went "ouch!" all the way.

Went home after accompany my juniors to lunch :/ slept right after i reach home.

here is the funny part!! i woke up, and straight away took my drink that i bought before i got home. Open it up. and drink it! cause i heard the radio saying the verse of the quran and i thought it was break fast already X) and my whole family was really shock that i drank infront of them.

Then i ask "why?" then i started to realise that is not time to break fast yet :/ they all laugh at me as i talk nonsense at the dining table and i didn't realise it untill now ://
haiz....

im still tired ):

Thinking things right

2009-09-06T21:45:00.000+08:00

Why sill moaning about it when it can't be change anymore? Why do i still need to have this feelings that i've been feeling for a very long time?
If the pieces doesn't fit anymore, why forcing that piece to be fit into the picture? There is no use in trying anymore. But why do i still care about this thing?
I've try to move on, try to avoid thinking about it. Trying my best to just have this anger feeling inside just to make myself feel better. But why am i not?

It just that i still do care about you. But i can't make myself to think that nothing happen. Cause the memeory keep coming back when i care. And it hurts. That is reality. I put my heart and soul to it. Make that person as if shes was part of my life. But i guess it was a mistake.

It took me almost 2 years to start talking to amanda. Start being friends with her. In that period of time, i cared for her. But it hurt still.

I may be your special friend, but i can't do the same for you. Cause its just not the same anymore.. It just not meant to be.

You enjoy your life, and i'll enjoy mine (:

2009-09-06T00:25:00.000+08:00

Something is wrong with the blogger thingy :/ going to edit it soon!

There is alway a first

2009-09-05T02:01:00.000+08:00

Hey fudin here (:
This will be my new blog. New me (:
and whole lot of new swinging on this blog!!
Not many people know about this blog. if you're reading this, you the lucky few who got to know about it (:

so this blog will remind me of nothing but me(:
or maybe a new person into my life!

goodnight..